Conversations with God~on Tuberous Sclerosis Complex

by Jill Woodworth Did those individuals affected by Tuberous Sclerosis Complex drop in for this very time in our collective human history? When I consider the language of the definition of Tuberous Sclerosis Complex and let myself drift into that dreamy abstract place of right-brained “thinking” and quantum insights, I imagine each soul in the … Continue reading “Conversations with God~on Tuberous Sclerosis Complex”

by Jill Woodworth

Did those individuals affected by Tuberous Sclerosis Complex drop in for this very time in our collective human history? When I consider the language of the definition of Tuberous Sclerosis Complex and let myself drift into that dreamy abstract place of right-brained “thinking” and quantum insights, I imagine each soul in the ether packing their akashic record, knowing they wanted to incarnate on the 3D earth plane for this massive collective awakening and evolution we are now experiencing. At least that’s how I choose to see it. It kinda goes like this….

A conversation in the ether…

Soul to God, or higher guide (your choice here):  How could I put all the life lessons I need, into one tight package that will not only with the unfolding most assist me in my soul’s evolution to a higher plane and contribute to the overall awakening of humanity?  

God or higher guide: Well, let’s see, you could jump down in there with a chronic illness, an addiction, or some horrible, complicated cancer, or any number of excruciating “diagnoses”….Wait. Oh, I know, here’s one…There seems to be a number of souls that incarnated more recently with this condition that (get this) causes benign tumors to grow in all the vital organs and possibly all the organs of the human body! Whoa. And those living with this condition end up experiencing all the systems of care have to offer. The good, the bad, the ugly.  The system where they end up spending the most time in the healthcare system, because, oh boy, did you hear that? “benign” tumors, which is really like just saying, let me throw a freakin wrench in it b/c there is no such thing as “benign” in their current healthcare system.  

What happens in an organ-based medical system in which each bodily organ basically has its own system within the system, and these humans are just now realizing that the systems all need to talk to each other in order to actually fix anything long-term? Utter chaos. In the form of treatments organ by organ, and added diagnoses, medications and tests and regimens, “neuropsychiatric” issues, massive behavioral challenges, and all kinds of ways of “managing” what is truly unmanageable. Because their understanding of who they are as divine beings, mind, body, and spirit, a visible reflection of the living God, is not fully understood. Yet.

So, therefore, if you choose to do so, you’ll be taking on the core consciousnesses of humility, failure, guilt, shame, anger, frustration, gratitude, forgiveness, devotion, acceptance, and any exponential fragment of any and all of these that you can imagine. And more. You’ll be stacked. It’ll be the most exciting incarnation you could ever choose! Of course- one requirement. You’ll need to pack in, this huge heart, bigger than the entire world, that all these souls seem to have. Seems to be some sort of portal to the essence of these souls’ purpose. So, overall you’re looking at a really mixed bag. If you have some karmic debt, giddy-up. Past lives haunting you? Welcome. Wanna up level in one lifetime? Welp, sign right up. You will be able to clear it all with a good incarnation or two experiencing this conundrum of a role. But what an opportunity!! Every bodily system you can imagine with a literal “wrench” in it. It will force the humans to understand the dire need for the integration of their minds, bodies, and spirit all in one fell swoop!!

You know all those systems never were created for real live people. More for ideas of people as they were, at a fixed point, about 40 or 400 years behind the rest of the world. Now it’s costing the humans dearly. None of us really are square enough to fit into their rigid round holes anymore. What’s needed is a bunch of y’all to jump on in and just be there. Just be in it, you’ll have help. What’ll happen is that big old heart that you are bringing down will force their hand. Those humans are now embedded within these systems and have lost sight of the bigger picture. The broader perspective one you see up here in the ether. The fully integrated divine human. The one that so many are becoming more aware of is possible to stand in, while they are still in a human body. You’ll be contributing to the frequency of heaven on earth, by creating awareness of the dire need for monumental changes in the way things are done down there!

In dropped the TSC affected, through our channels, and we were aptly chosen for the congruent nature of each of our core consciousnesses……some Magna Carta of soul contracts. The ripple effects of the TSC drop-in splash also contracts with many more souls who also can join in the akashic clean-up adventure of a lifetime.  Their needs are so complicated, and hard to tease out on any given day that those that are gifted with these souls’ presence in their lives, whether as their child, parent, sibling, will be in for some tough reckonings. And deep truths. They may fall deeply in love with these souls, forever transformed by the light they carry, so much so they will accept the loss of attachments to just about everything that they think ever mattered. And most will find it worth it. All will. In time.

So, if you ever question what you are doing here, please reflect on this. You matter. So much. You are here for a reason. Even if you don’t really believe this, I don’t care anymore I’m going to say it. This is a path like non-other, not better or worse but wholly unique and wholly worthwhile. Use your time here on the earth plane to keep finding the higher love, the one that resides in each of us, the one that connects us to the beautiful river of love that we are here to honor…

I’m not sure where it came from but it definitely flowed through me, this new/old soul, experiential learner, who awakened to the gift of being alive, here now, and honored to be awakening through the process of “caregiving” individuals with TSC. So much love to you, to me, to all of humanity but especially to those affected by this diagnosis. 💖

TSC Talks Guest Sherri Tutkus

TSC Talks guest Sherri Tutkus is the founder and CEO of GreenNurse Group, Nursing Director at Irie Bliss Wellness and host of GreenNurse on the Go Radio Show. Sherri is a cannabis nurse, patient and advocate. She earned her Bachelors in Science and Nursing from Boston College. She is highly skilled Registered Nurse with 30 years’ practical experience in various departments within the hospital and home setting. She is utilizing her expert nursing skills as a medical center specialist, clinical nurse liaison and educator to bridge the gap between patients and the cannabis community. Sherri has been educating and implementing holistic integrative healing modalities within her practice for over 20 years. She educates on the endocannabinoid system and the safe utilization of cannabis at dispensaries, hospitals, clinics, patients homes and she regularly does pop up events, seminars and expos. Sherri is an international speaker and she has contributed to the writing of the first cannabis nursing textbook with her cannabis nurse colleagues that will be available in nursing schools across the country. Sherri is a member of the American Cannabis Nurses Association and founding member of The Cannabis Nurses Network and was nominated as one of two nurses for “Health Professional of the Year” for the 2020 New England Cannabis Convention. Sherri brings passion and purpose to her work teaching bio-psycho-social-spiritual healing using cannabis as a tool.

In this episode, Sherri shares from the annals of intensely personal experience detailing how her entire life went from one of a busy full time nurse, working in hospitals in Boston, single mother of three to becoming completely bedridden, dependent on others for care. She states,

“I’m going to be a little bit transparent today. I think it’ll be really helpful to talk from my own personal perspective in working with cannabinoid therapeutics and mental health in regards to my own mental health. So before I got sick in 2012 I had a history of migraines and ADHD-attention deficit disorder. Both of those were managed very well with medications, working full time as a nurse in the big teaching hospitals in Boston, three kids. I was highly functioning. When I took a hit from eating a bacteria while I was working I ended up in the intensive care unit, with a mega colon, an infectious disease, and it was really bad. So I got sick in 2012, took a hit to my gut. I went from high functioning to not functioning at all”

From here Sherri lays out the journey back and how a fellow nurse at a particularly low point after she’d been put on 16 pharmaceuticals and was “circling the drain of despair”, encouraged her to try cannabis as medicine.

“I was on the other side of the bed, like in a really big bad way, all of a sudden I’m the patient and having to advocate for myself. So not only was it the physical issues that I had, but I also had to deal with the system, the system that I worked in, how is that going to affect my mental health and how are they going to take care of me? The trauma that I experienced from this illness is so overwhelming high functioning to not functioning, home- bed bound in the hospital- couldn’t take care of my kids -could barely eat. I’m just gonna say it like it is explosive diarrhea, and nausea, vomiting, abdominal pain, pooping your pants in public. So you can see how literally I can talk about anything. From running around the block naked to talking about poop and stuff that comes out your bum. I was so mortified, horrified that I had this gastrointestinal illness that was debilitating, complete loss of control, it was horrible. And then the issues with eating and being able to take in food. So that spiraled into, mental health issues, the developing anxiety and the depression. And over time, I wasn’t getting better. I had agoraphobia, I was afraid to leave.”

And I’m going to tell you too, and this is the part of trauma that I’m really trying to help patients with now, when I’m working with them because I’ve been there. You know, I’ve been there. I call it medical trauma. And Pharmaceutical trauma.

It was cannabinoid therapeutics that came into my life that really made the significant impactful change, that allowed everything that wasn’t working to start working again and actually allowed me to start processing information from a different place because I was pulled out of the story of the sickness, the story or the trajectory of sickness. an illness. You know, it was the cannabinoids that actually opened the door that allowed everything that wasn’t working to start working again.”

I was utilizing all of the other tools that existed. The traditional system, the holistic system, the functional integrative system, acupuncture, chiropractor, essential oils, homeopathy, you name it, and none of it worked. Why? Because my endocannabinoid system was completely 100% deficient. I was not making enough of my own internal endogenous cannabinoids to keep my system regulated including my brain”

“And so what it took was it was one of my nursing colleagues who had just retired. She was one of my patients because I do energy healing work. I do Reiki and Reconnective Healing and she was one of my clients from energy healing. She had been trying to get in touch with me and she had just turned 70 and I kept blowing her off. So she came to my house with a big giant, big fat joint. And she walked into my bedroom and I looked at her and I go, are you kidding me? I mean, is this a joke? Seriously, you’re bringing me weed? Like, how is this gonna help me?”

There’s much more within this episode as Sherri goes into a lot of detail on various aspects of cannabis as medicine and how it works to restore homeostasis, what this means for so many conceivably impossible to treat conditions, how this has profound implications, for ushering in a new paradigm of modern medicine, bridging the gaps between traditional and alternative medicine with results, research and centuries of “anecdotal experience” evidencing profound efficacy and facilitating personal autonomy and decreased dependence on a broken healthcare system.

For Sherri, these brutal series of experiences were the launching pad for what is now her business, Green Nurse Group and has led to her work as Medical Director of Irie Bliss Wellness. She has the opportunity to help others on their journey with cannabis. She discusses the personal stigma she had to overcome as well as challenges within her own family who were not initially supportive of her foray into the cannabis industry among other potential roadblocks so many of us experience as we advocate for what we know to be true about cannabis. It is a life saving plant that has the power to transform one’s entire state of being.

Sherri and Green Nurse Group as well as many other Cannabis Nurses, Doctors who are slowly starting to embrace cannabis and other professionals with whom Sherri inspires sit at the crossroads of this exciting yet also frustrating time in traditional medicine as the systems we have depended on for so long to help keep us alive and having quality of life are not leading to overall improved quality of life for more than not.

One final quote from Sherri and then be sure to check out her links: “I honestly see this (cannabis as medicine) being integrated into mainstream medicine, but it’s going to happen in the community first. So in other words, as healthcare professionals, a lot of cannabis nurses, including myself, the traditional healthcare system has failed us in multiple ways. Not only were surgeries denied, medications were denied. I had to fight for my for surgical procedures, the mental health system-completely broken. Bottom line is that a lot of systems that we medical professionals, especially cannabis nurses have come from, we’ve come from broken systems, and so we want to make it better. And how do we make it better? We start in our communities by educating and then there’s going to be a critical mass eventually. It’s going to happen and I’ve already seen it …now I’m getting phone calls from more doctors asking, “Hey, what’s the green nurse?” ”

Sherri’s Links:

Green Nurse Group: https://www.greennursegroup.com/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/GreenNurseSherri
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sherri_tutkus/,

https://www.instagram.com/greennursegroup/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Green_Nurses
LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/sherri-tutkus-rn-bsn-912b7776/
Recent Articel: https://www.bizjournals.com/boston/news/2019/10/10/the-system-is-a-big-fat-failure-access-to-cannabis.html
Recent podcast appearance: http://www.theaddictionarypodcast.com/e/part-viii-of-cannachronicles-with-sherri-tutkus/

Sherri’s previous podcast and all of our podcasts can be found at https://tsctalks.com/podcast/

TSC Talks Guest Liz Minda & Mike Robinson Pt 1

TSC Talks guest Liz Minda and Mike Robinson Part 1

In this episode of TSC Talks, I spoke to Liz Minda, RN and Mike Robinson, former TSC Talks guest, drops in for the second half of our conversation. Liz has three children, one of whom has significant special needs and issues related to epileptic seizures. Liz strongly believes her daughter’s issues are pharma injuries and we discuss that and the treatment protocol. Liz had her children later in life; her son was born when she was 48 and her twin daughters were born when she was 50. She had normal uneventful pregnancies and her children were all born healthy. All was well until, at 18 months old, one of her daughters developed a fever after her MMR/DPT vaccine. That was when she had her first seizure.

Liz’s daughter had no further seizures until she was 4. When the seizures came back, they were severe grand mal status epilepticus seizures. Liz hesitated to medicate her daughter because as an RN, she was aware of the difficulty of finding an effective medicine as well as the myriad of side effects anti-seizure meds can cause. When the seizures continued, they eventually started meds which began a cycle of seizures increasing in both frequency and duration. In addition to meds, they put the child on the ketogenic diet. The grueling regimen did not help her seizure activity. Liz was desperate after even the rescue med Diastat began to fail to control the seizures.

Liz got her daughter into the Epidiolex study at Mass General and her daughter’s seizures diminished for a few months, but they returned. When the seizures started again, doctors increased her pharmaceuticals which restarted the med, seizure pattern. Liz grew frustrated with the medical establishment who seemed determined to throw prescription after prescription at them at great financial, physical and emotional cost. She found a neuro-epileptologist who helped her begin weaning her daughter from some of the prescription meds and helped her transition to Charlotte’s Web.

Liz connected with Mike Robinson online and Mike and others in the Compassionate Cannabis world assisted Liz in finding a balanced cannabinoid medicine that worked for her daughter. Mike and Liz discuss Epidiolex and the pharmaceutical interactions which do not seem to be compensated for when using that med. Liver issues can be serious when Epidiolex or any type of CBD is combined with certain medications. Mike shares, “Even though we were using the Charlotte’s Web, Charlotte’s Web wasn’t enough to help us get off. We needed something stronger. We needed the Rick Simpson oil or full extract cannabis oil to get her off. Because we only had you know, once you get down to the minuscule doses of the pharmaceuticals, now you’re really up against you know, fighting seizures, because you go with a really slow business and that’s pretty much where we’ve stepped in, you know, it’s right with the actual compassion provision.”

Both Mike and Liz believe vaccine injury is real. We ask you to keep an open mind while listening. Before you form an opinion, walk a mile with Liz and Mike, hear their stories and then decide. Liz comments, “and then people say, vaccines don’t cause autism? Yes, they do, and here’s why. When the brain heats up and you get a fever, you’ve got brain on fire” and she believes that “brain on fire” condition causes both seizures and autism.

TSC Talks is presenting this narrative and these views do not necessarily represent the views of TSC Talks. We are encouraging you as listeners, to “walk a mile” in Liz’s shoes and understand the vast variability in the human genome which calls for a far more personalized approach to medicine than is currently the status quo.

Liz’s Links:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brain_on_Fire
LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/liz-minda-98b9b1126/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100011148612874
https://www.mikesmedicines.com/medical-marijuana/liz-minda-and-her-fight-for-jadyn-cannabis-for-epilepsy/
https://herb.co/news/health/rhode-island-cbd-school-minda/
https://digboston.com/medical-cannabis-special-treating-yourself/
https://www.wpri.com/news/special-reports/family-fights-to-change-law-says-medical-cannabis-should-be-administered-in-school/

Mike’s Links:
https://mikesmedicines.com
https://globalcannabinoidrc.com/
https://carouselchallenge.com
https://genevievesdream.com
https://nanobles.com
LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/mike-robinson-~-cannabis-heals-256b3192/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/MikesEpilepsy
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/cannabismymedicine/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/MikeRob47354384, https://twitter.com/MikeRob23307223
https://hightimes.com/culture/genevieves-journey-how-cannabis-helped-save-life-create-family/
https://www.imedpub.com/proceedings/cbn-the-cancer-fighting-cannabinoid-5528.html

Thank you Liz and Mike for this valuable discussion.  You can find all of our podcasts at https://tsctalks.com/podcast/

 

TSC Talks guest Liz Minda