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TSC Talks! Final podcast~Wrapping it Up & Thanks

Jill wraps up the podcast! I started in 2016 by interviewing my kids and how they were affected by Tuberous Sclerosis Complex. It was absolutely divine inspiration from the start and branched out shortly after to interviewing community members and other professionals who worked with those affected. From there, I explored many different topics, providing information and resources in interview form, all with relevance to the individuals and/or parents/caregivers affected by a chronic illness like TSC.

Pushing the boundaries of what was deemed “safe and effective” by our medical system, I continued to put the info out there based on my own lived experience as a parent/caregiver living and dealing with what I’d come to discover is CPTSD if you want to use a label. It was my vision and still is that all “remedies” for improving the quality of life of all involved in the wheels of chronic illness, particularly one such as TSC which affects all the vital body organs, will be an option for all.

Why should we hold back the river when there are so many speaking about how their lives have been impacted by sharing their truths, sharing what’s worked for them and what potentially might help another ease the very real and almost daily traumas of attempting to live with an open heart and navigate our inverted systems of care?

Many of these podcasts go against the grain of what people are comfortable hearing. There are always positive takeaways but there are some heavy heavy experiences that people are walking through and talking about and must be given voice. I think through honest conversation, and taking full responsibility for one’s reactions to other’s sharing from their most painful, heart-wrenching moments, we can begin to hear each other once again at least long enough to realize, we’re all having vastly different experiences yet we all long to be here now, safe, loved, whole, home.

Thanks for tuning in and being here there and everywhere. It’s been the pleasure of a lifetime to have the opportunity to create and share this work.

Love Jill

Conversations with God~on Tuberous Sclerosis Complex

by Jill Woodworth Did those individuals affected by Tuberous Sclerosis Complex drop in for this very time in our collective human history? When I consider the language of the definition of Tuberous Sclerosis Complex and let myself drift into that dreamy abstract place of right-brained “thinking” and quantum insights, I imagine each soul in the … Continue reading “Conversations with God~on Tuberous Sclerosis Complex”

by Jill Woodworth

Did those individuals affected by Tuberous Sclerosis Complex drop in for this very time in our collective human history? When I consider the language of the definition of Tuberous Sclerosis Complex and let myself drift into that dreamy abstract place of right-brained “thinking” and quantum insights, I imagine each soul in the ether packing their akashic record, knowing they wanted to incarnate on the 3D earth plane for this massive collective awakening and evolution we are now experiencing. At least that’s how I choose to see it. It kinda goes like this….

A conversation in the ether…

Soul to God, or higher guide (your choice here):  How could I put all the life lessons I need, into one tight package that will not only with the unfolding most assist me in my soul’s evolution to a higher plane and contribute to the overall awakening of humanity?  

God or higher guide: Well, let’s see, you could jump down in there with a chronic illness, an addiction, or some horrible, complicated cancer, or any number of excruciating “diagnoses”….Wait. Oh, I know, here’s one…There seems to be a number of souls that incarnated more recently with this condition that (get this) causes benign tumors to grow in all the vital organs and possibly all the organs of the human body! Whoa. And those living with this condition end up experiencing all the systems of care have to offer. The good, the bad, the ugly.  The system where they end up spending the most time in the healthcare system, because, oh boy, did you hear that? “benign” tumors, which is really like just saying, let me throw a freakin wrench in it b/c there is no such thing as “benign” in their current healthcare system.  

What happens in an organ-based medical system in which each bodily organ basically has its own system within the system, and these humans are just now realizing that the systems all need to talk to each other in order to actually fix anything long-term? Utter chaos. In the form of treatments organ by organ, and added diagnoses, medications and tests and regimens, “neuropsychiatric” issues, massive behavioral challenges, and all kinds of ways of “managing” what is truly unmanageable. Because their understanding of who they are as divine beings, mind, body, and spirit, a visible reflection of the living God, is not fully understood. Yet.

So, therefore, if you choose to do so, you’ll be taking on the core consciousnesses of humility, failure, guilt, shame, anger, frustration, gratitude, forgiveness, devotion, acceptance, and any exponential fragment of any and all of these that you can imagine. And more. You’ll be stacked. It’ll be the most exciting incarnation you could ever choose! Of course- one requirement. You’ll need to pack in, this huge heart, bigger than the entire world, that all these souls seem to have. Seems to be some sort of portal to the essence of these souls’ purpose. So, overall you’re looking at a really mixed bag. If you have some karmic debt, giddy-up. Past lives haunting you? Welcome. Wanna up level in one lifetime? Welp, sign right up. You will be able to clear it all with a good incarnation or two experiencing this conundrum of a role. But what an opportunity!! Every bodily system you can imagine with a literal “wrench” in it. It will force the humans to understand the dire need for the integration of their minds, bodies, and spirit all in one fell swoop!!

You know all those systems never were created for real live people. More for ideas of people as they were, at a fixed point, about 40 or 400 years behind the rest of the world. Now it’s costing the humans dearly. None of us really are square enough to fit into their rigid round holes anymore. What’s needed is a bunch of y’all to jump on in and just be there. Just be in it, you’ll have help. What’ll happen is that big old heart that you are bringing down will force their hand. Those humans are now embedded within these systems and have lost sight of the bigger picture. The broader perspective one you see up here in the ether. The fully integrated divine human. The one that so many are becoming more aware of is possible to stand in, while they are still in a human body. You’ll be contributing to the frequency of heaven on earth, by creating awareness of the dire need for monumental changes in the way things are done down there!

In dropped the TSC affected, through our channels, and we were aptly chosen for the congruent nature of each of our core consciousnesses……some Magna Carta of soul contracts. The ripple effects of the TSC drop-in splash also contracts with many more souls who also can join in the akashic clean-up adventure of a lifetime.  Their needs are so complicated, and hard to tease out on any given day that those that are gifted with these souls’ presence in their lives, whether as their child, parent, sibling, will be in for some tough reckonings. And deep truths. They may fall deeply in love with these souls, forever transformed by the light they carry, so much so they will accept the loss of attachments to just about everything that they think ever mattered. And most will find it worth it. All will. In time.

So, if you ever question what you are doing here, please reflect on this. You matter. So much. You are here for a reason. Even if you don’t really believe this, I don’t care anymore I’m going to say it. This is a path like non-other, not better or worse but wholly unique and wholly worthwhile. Use your time here on the earth plane to keep finding the higher love, the one that resides in each of us, the one that connects us to the beautiful river of love that we are here to honor…

I’m not sure where it came from but it definitely flowed through me, this new/old soul, experiential learner, who awakened to the gift of being alive, here now, and honored to be awakening through the process of “caregiving” individuals with TSC. So much love to you, to me, to all of humanity but especially to those affected by this diagnosis. 💖